resilience

re·sil·ience
   /rɪˈzɪlyəns, -ˈzɪliəns/ Show Spelled[ri-zil-yuhns, -zil-ee-uhns]

–noun
1.
the power or ability to return to the original form, position, etc., after being bent, compressed, or stretched; elasticity.
2.
ability to recover readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyancy.

i think this is the new lesson that God's been trying to teach me lately. it's been a difficult year... i used to think i was strong, that i could deal with anything and everything, but God shattered that shell year.

every week, i think i've reached a new "low point" in my life. but then a few days later, it gets a little better. so i tell myself... "it's not so bad at all... maybe i could handle this a little longer." and then it repeats. and repeats again.

okay God, I get it now...

i know it can and will still get harder... but i think i've finally realized and learned something: only until it gets worse, does the bad get not-that-bad... so i've learned to take each moment and learn to rely wholly on God. i can't do it alone... God, give me strength...