chill. out.

hm. nothing profound to add today. well i do, but i can't verbalize it. i kind of wished that there should be some sort of iPhone app or something that automatically transcribes all your day's worth of thoughts into text. this way, i don't have to spend time journaling those thoughts just so i won't forget them and can revisit them. #startupopportunities

shoot i may have just potentially broadcasted a multi-million dollar business idea that someone will now steal and get the millions from. just keep me in mind when you become rich, okay?

anyways. something i've been realizing lately is that i enjoy learning and constantly being challenged... always looking for new things to try, learn about, and experience. (okay fine, maybe i'm a bit of a nerd.) except that it can easily become a bad thing for me, because if the challenge is over, i get bored real quick, and grow disinterested in the task. which poses a new kind of challenge for me, a type of challenge i don't enjoy as much. once i make it up the learning curve, it's dunzo for me. some people like stability and being comfortable in the day-to-day things that they do. they enjoy the routine of life. unfortunately, that's the hardest part for me. aka, it makes doing the things i don't want to do difficult. (can't you just hear a bratty cathy saying "i do what i want?" yep, that's me... :()

i need to continue to grow more in this spirit of servanthood. learning to do the things i don't want to do to serve others. to chill out and not always be a knowledge / learning glutton. i recently began training for a marathon in June. surprisingly, it's been teaching me a lot about myself and how i approach all areas of life. in training, once a week i do a long run to build my endurance. all the other days are shorter "maintenance" runs... which i find hard for me to limit myself to only the shorter mileage: either i always want to run further because i like to push myself, or i just want to skip it b/c it's nominal mileage compared to the long runs. however, it's strongly discouraged to rack up miles like that because it only magnifies the risk for stress injuries.

this phrase "perseverance produces endurance" keeps coming up: as i persevere, even through the "maintenance days", i am then able to build endurance allowing me to run further. as much as i love running, there are several days where i merely just "don't want to". but knowing that missing a day will translate into physical injury, i have to push myself to get out the door. and that's when i realize this is exactly how i approach several other things: esp. my relationship with God. reading the Word daily is a mental training that disciplines my thoughts. if i don't read the Word daily, i'll only get injured later on when race gets harder.

perseverance produces endurance to run longer and harder.